Well, last week finished poorly despite my very strong efforts. On Friday I knelt down to put a jacket on my dog (first snow and cold weather) for our walk, and I tore a muscle in my quadricep. That the muscle tore was not surprising since it was sore already for over a week, and I had just been doing more activities, including dance and step aerobics. Something was bound to give. But it gave SO HARD that I wound up screaming and crying for almost 10 minutes because I felt such excruciating pain radiating down my leg.I “whited out” in pain.
I had to lay in bed for the day. I felt down and ate a lot.
The next day was extremely stressful because I had to hobble around to set up for our Halloween gathering. I spent about 6 hours in constant movement just getting the yard set up with decorations and games, getting food ready, going shopping for last minute items — my leg was KILLING me and I was so stressed out on top of the pain. I ended up eating a lot of candy and generally bingeing on unhealthy foods and alcohol.
For the rest of the weekend I just let my leg heal. I ate more candy. My head was not in the game because I was feeling down.
As I begin Week 4, I am like…what the hell am I doing? I am into this “program” for 4 weeks and I feel worse off than when I began. I have gained weight and have next to nothing to show for this time.
Something needs to shift. I decided to create a new template to use each day:
Daily Check-In
| Weight | Body Fat | BMI | Hips | Waist | Bust | Thigh |
| 139.4 | 27.4% | 24.1 | 38.5in | 32.2in | 38in | 21in |
| Movement Activity | Duration | Burn | Notes |
| Yoga Nidra | 30 | 0 |
| Calorie Goal | Calories | Notes |
| 1200-1300 | 1298 |
| Daily Self Care | Notes |
| Yoga Nidra |
| Bowel Movement | Notes |
| 4 |
| Goals | Mini Goals |
| Reach 125 pounds | Lose .5 – 1 pound per week |
| Be more present with parenting | Put aside mental and emotional space |
| Manage stress better | Meditate and do yoga, feel feelings |
| Balance work/play/family life | Make time for all things |
| Feel more joy | Explore interests and passions |
Moon Bodies 